Late in the evening

It's amazing how much I've gotten done today. Woke up around 10:30 today, although I probably would have slept later if Lucy hadn't gotten me up. Went out shopping for her today. She did a pretty good job shopping but she was really close to buying a dress she shouldn't buy. Where was she gonna wear the damn thing? She's better off buying shirts she'll wear all the time. Still didn't get any jeans but whatever. After that we went to Panera Bread, which I haven't had since I've been home. It was so good. I like the fact that it's healthy too cause most places I eat are not even close to healthy lol. Came home after that. I almost took a nap but I kept myself awake by cleaning up before Mama got home. She was in kind of a mood over the phone but it was fine after she got home. I cheered her up :-)

I've done so much since I've been home. I filled in dates in my planner, applied to several different jobs for the summer, looked up costs for my books, put together the agenda for the fraternity's first meeting, sent emails to everyone that needed it. I've been on a roll. I finally took a break.

Kienan called tonight and the conversation was going fine. At one point we started talking about schools and I talked about how I wanna go to Southern California. He kind of made a comment about the long distance thing and how we would possibly have to take a break, or a pause as he later put it. I was almost in tears. I honestly couldn't believe he had said that. I hate the word "break". It shouldn't be used in any relationship. Kind of upset me cause I felt like he wasn't willing to pull through our relationship like I was. He later apologized and said he didn't mean it cause he would be upset if we had to stop dating. Mom told me to not let it bother me. I'm trying but now I'm scared as to what can happen when we graduate. I wanna marry him and spend the rest of my life with him so I would hope he felt the same way. I think he was truly sorry and maybe he just wasn't thinking about what he said. I'm not gonna worry about it. Just had to get it out of my mind.