2010, New year, New Beginnings

Happy new year :-) I haven't been on here in forever. So much has changed since this past summer. New boyfriend, new home. I'm still at Frostburg though. I'm a senior this year but I may have to be there for an extra year. I honestly don't know what to do right now. I have to decide whether or not I want to keep my major or change it to Liberal Studies with an Emphasis in Music. It's just been a rough road and I need to know what I should do considering I don't want to sing the music they teach me. I really want to sing my own music or send it off and have someone sing it for me. Honestly in the long run I want to start a family. I want to marry Kienan and share a home with him and have kids with him and be the family I know we can be.

I can't believe we've been dating for a year and a month. I've never been with someone for this long. It's been the best relationship I've had with anyone. It's not perfect but nothing is and I shouldn't expect perfection out of it. I spent the week with him out at his place. It was so nice. Yea his parents were around but I felt like we could do whatever we want and not have people worrying about us. I enjoyed it so much.

I'm going down to Dad's tomorrow so it's not like I can unpack anything lol. It'll be nice though. I haven't seen him since this summer. I think I get to see him only about twice a year. I do miss him sometimes but then again sometimes it doesn't phase me. I love my Dad very much but I've grown up always living with one parent. He has his life down in South Carolina. I don't hate him for that at all. I can't say the same for my sisters.

So it's the new year and I haven't made any resolutions. Guess I should do that now.

1. Worry less about the little things

2. Stop smoking'

3. Eat healthier

4. Finish everything that I start (unless it's a really bad fight lol)

5. Don't take things out on my family and my boyfriend

6. Make a plan for my career

7. Get my music recorded, copyrighted, and published

8. Love myself and others more

I think that's a good list. I want to stick to this. I have seriously let my emotions get the best of me and take over my life so I don't want to allow that anymore. It's a good start :-)

Happy New Year!!!