So today I called my father to talk to him about this upcoming weekend. I'm going to stay with my Aunt and Uncle for a couple days to see my grandfather then heading down to hang with my Dad. When I talked to him today he told me that my grandfather has told the hospital he would like for them to stop his medication and to stop feeding him through an I.V. At this point he is waiting for his life to end. I cried for a good hour about it.
I always ask myself why my Grandfather wants to do this to himself. I know a few reasons. He lost my grandmother (whom he loved dearly) about 10 years ago. He is a diabetic and is on many medications that kill his energy and his taste buds. It upsets me though because he acts like he is lonely when that is simply not true. He still has his children, his 6 grandchildren and 4 great-grandchildren who love him very much. I don't want to see him give up.
This whole situation came as a reality check to me. I cannot let myself become a person who cannot, or chooses not to take care of themselves. If I can work to be a healthy person then I can inspire the rest of my family to be healthy as well and we can live longer and happier lives. I don't want the possibility of diabetes in my future and I don't want it for my sisters either. My grandfather deserved a healthier life and he wouldn't do that for himself. I choose to do this for myself because I don't think God intended for us to give up on ourselves.
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