I'm feeling a little unmotivated right now. I'm not sure why but I'm getting to that point where I'm starting to lose focus. I don't know what to do to get myself back there again. Do I need to just give myself a good kick in the ass or what? I have to work out tomorrow, there's no doubt about that. I have to do this because if I don't I'm going to disappoint so many people and most of all myself. I can't do that, especially to my family and myself. I'm not quitting something else this time. I'm going to finish it this time. I just need to get back on the horse I guess.
It's been a little weird this week with the Music department. People are just all over the place with emotions and attitudes. I don't understand how hard it is to just go to class and deal with what's going on there. I've learned how to do it, now it's your turn. At this point I'm just gonna have to ignore it and do the things I would like to do because it's only gonna get worse. Playing favorites has come into the program. Who'd have thought that would have happened? I keep thinking that maybe I should say something but then again I'm sitting there thinking "Why start trouble?" I don't want to cause trouble but sometimes I feel like I need to take action on certain things. It just gets so repetitive and I get so tired of it. We'll see how things go I guess. Right now I just need to make it through my classes and worry about myself and not pay attention to petty shit. It's high school crap that I don't want to deal with.
So far I'm doing ok with my classes. I think I'm gonna have to drop the online class though cause that's something that I would have to give all of my attention to when I don't have 6 other classes going on. It's a very difficult course to keep up with and I already have a lot on my plate as far as my course schedule is concerned.
I should go to sleep but I'm having a hard time closing my eyes. Just keep trying I guess.
